well, gg back to skool wasnt as good and happy as i thought.
i will change url very often. haha. very obvious reason tt i don tink i hav to spell it out.
wanna post pic, but the usb cable or my phone got something wrong. ):well, now, tt fren of mine, can reali break or make my mood.
i somehow still have not get used of him/her not close wid miie anymore.
guess i need more time.i duno now, my EQ is dropping, i cannot hide my emotions anymore. wth, and im losing myself. in terms of my real character. haiis. no matter wad, i don wana show my true emotions anymore. i guess ppl ard miie jus wan to see the happy side of miie. and not the sad/emo part. i' feeling more and more lonely alr. without tt fren of mine, i seem lost. i have no one to depend on, no one to give miie veh wise advice, no one to listen to miie anymore. i feel like breaking down alr. i feel so suffocated. but i duno who to turn to cos, they may nvr noe how i reali feel and wad the real situation. i just have to learn to keep things to myself. not everyone has the patience to listen. suddenly i can feel not having close frens is reali very painful and lonely. well, The Truths Always Bring You Back To Reality why isit so hard to trust ppl now? i trust ppl wholeheartedly before i stepped into MI. why am i changed now? why is it tt i cant accept changes? why is it i can spot pple's flaws easily and not spot pple's positive points in their character? is my problem. can time just go faster? im just a little more fortunate cos i got cheryl junyu and yiwei. but we arent close frens tt can stick to each other anymore. we are in difernt skools. no one will be there for each other in times of danger. but they are part of my life alr.pertaining to priorities, he was my first priority. but i don have 2nd,3rd,4th......he was jus naturally my priority. i wont becos of losing this first priority and den jus look for another person or grp to fill this priority. guess, no one can ever be in tt place-no matter wad happn. i jus cant open and tell ppl my probs. something tt i've changed over time. most of the time ppl tell miie their probs automatically. but when it comes to my problem, i will nvr wan to say unless the person probes. cos who knows if the person will feel irritated or cant be bothered to listen? i've tried saying them, but the ppl i tried telling, just gave miie rejected replies. im scared alr. and results are still not out yet. so irritating.
im so nervous and my future still blurred.
i cant see carefully the path i want to choose.
i need some light.
i don wanna be alone.
i wan old miie back.BLA~i wan myself back!!!!!! May My Soul Return. lol!
♥ Friday, October 12, 2007
