Emotions:
i somehow feel veh lost. feel as though my soul is being detached from myself. i drift away from conversations and thoughts. so many sleepless nights, but don even noe wth im thinking about. like a million piece of puzzle tht i need a lot of time for me to complete. i know i need frens at this point of time. but i just cant face anyone wid my real emotions, real me. i rather hide somewhere tt i reali hate-home, where no one ask or even notice tht u are sad. there, i can cry as much as i want. i don have to suppress my tears till i wana suffocate and die. i hate crying infront of pple. i hate it. and if someone forces me, i will reali hate tt person, like i hate S-W now.
for some reason, i still hope t tell tt particular fren of mine how i reali feel and show my real emotions, but well, i noe im not tt shameless after all to say i reali need you anymore. should i like just let go, instead of holding on so tightly? if onli i noe all the answers in life, to make the right decisons. if onli im selfish, i wont be in such sorry state now.

Thursday(25/10)
went to skool, den self dismissal right aftr PE.
den went to Jurong entertainment centre to sup. wid may-bong's grp and huimin.
so contented being FULL.
den met up wid yiwei to go home tgtr. but i wana apologise, i couldnt crack any words out. i was suppressing .

Wednesday(24/10)
yupp. OCS. no matter how sian bout gg skool, i still wanted to go. well, tts the last outing we will have as a class. edlyn, huimin, zhiwei, and huixia. hmmm. 7 months of frenship. i dowan to tink tt it will end soon. but i reali cant convince tt we'll still be tt close aftr next yr.
but well, something im sure about, is tt i will sure miss eds , huimin and even zhiwei.
miss all the craps, laughter and even tears we gone thru tgtr. (:



On Tuesday(23/10)

had a 5 hrs walk on civilized and uncivilized areas in singpore. wid fadly and benny. well, nature is reali GOD's / GODS' gift to everyone. reali nice- even is in Singapore.

♥ Friday, October 26, 2007